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| At 3pm yesterday Keara Kroelinger was killed in a three car accident in huntsville alabama.
She was one of the second year grad students at UAH
She went to undergrad with me at Auburn.
There are conflicting news stories, one says she was pregnant the other doesn't. If she was pregnant she'd just found out, but I know that for the past few weeks she'd been excited about her upcoming wedding and starting a family with her soon to be husband.
Keara was one of those people that is just purely good and sweet. She went out of her way to be nice to everyone she met. She was doing her proposal for her thesis soon.
Please send good thoughts out to her family and any sort of prayers you can, especially her fiance because he isn't holding up all that well at all.
The world will be a little bit of a darker place without her in it. | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment   |
| Okay,
so the roommate and I noticed that our bowl of change is empty...sans change if you will.
Here are the facts
1. Neither one of us has taken the change out of the bowl
2. The bowl is still there just not the change.
This leads us to question
1. Did the landlady actually change the locks like she said she was going to?
2. If not..who the fuck has a key to our house.
3. WHO THE FUCK TAKES JUST THE CHANGE AND DOESN'T JUST GRAB THE BOWL AND RUN I MEAN C'MON!!!
At any rate..we will be changing the locks asap and I'll be calling her about completely replacing the door. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Okay. First..scanned through my friends list.
Gillian, you eat entirely too many magic things. (Yes I know it was cam related but all I thought was hotdog nuggets on the 202!!!)
According to the list Shanon posted. I is a redhead.
What else. Uhm.
Sharon Y. I miss you lady. And what's sad is I'm close enough to reach out, but i'm broke as hell so I can't :(
Okay those are the ones I remember off the top of my head.
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After two weeks of more waiting the university gave me to the go ahead to actually begin collecting data for my thesis. I train my lab underlings today.
-Moved into house: check
-Get finances in order: working on it. Gotta trim the fat with some of the bills before that falls into place
-Get unpacked: Not even close
-Spend more time with friends: Well the ones that live next to me now are seeing a lot more of me.
-Get organized for school: check.
I'm alive. Doing well. Single again but meh..i'm okay with that. Better to be single than to lose a really good friend. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Subject: | Miniupdate | | Time: | 01:15 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/dwaggins/blah.gif) stressed |
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| Thesis prospectus 99% finished. Maybe 2 more revisions then its off to my committee for approval.
Single again (its not a bad thing...deb i'll explain later!)
Moving into a 2 bedroom house yay...that's good.
Money situation kinda crap atm, but will improve by friday.
I'm alive, I'm well...I'm predominantly happy with everything. | | comments: 5 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Can anyone do professional/cool looking website banners? if so..can i is speak with you please? | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Failing a quiz due to forgetting to write down the formulas
Having a 45 minute discussion with your father as to why your cousin being a drug addict doesn't mean the mistake on a bill payment equals you being a drug addict
Arguing with the father about why he shouldn't be opening your mail anyway when he is supposed to just forward it.
Having that "are you really serious about making this work" conversation with the boyfriend and it ending with "i know i love you, but I am not certain I am willing to make this work"
cutting the shit out of your finger.
Worst birthday ever....yay for being 26 | | comments: 6 comments or Leave a comment |
| Busy busy busy with school
The boyfriend has been putting in his resume.
Deb, Jason...when you guys get back from SERE we needs to hang out one night!
School is keeping me so busy it hurts, but its great.
Trying to figure out how to pay for a conference in San Francisco in May. Dad says he will help...yayayay! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| super busy with school
super busy with school
super busy with school
/fallsoveranddies | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Let's see...where to start. The past year...rather uneventful in the sense of "omg drama!" There were the usual ups and downs with family and friends. My father and I got into our first physical altercation of the year around June-ish which resulted in him slugging me and him throwing a remote at my head (which I threw back and busted into 16 pieces) and me psychologically mangling him for a bit. That little spat ended when I found out I got accepted into graduate school and then we were ok again and have been really ok since that point. Uhm, nothing major with mom. My aunt and I had a falling out that was repaired when she needed me at my Great Aunt's funeral.
That is perhaps the biggest event of this year. My Great Aunt Bessie M. Bolton passed away on December 31, 2008. She was 100 years old. She was born in October of 1908. Its amazing to just think of all the things she had seen in her lifetime. My father had tried to push me to go see her the weekend before she passed away, but I didn't. Part of me (a very small part) feels guilty, but I didn't want to see her at the very end. She had Alzheimer's Dementia and it was entering into its latter/final stages. At that point she was no longer the woman that I had known. I wanted my last memories of her to be of when we were in her kicthen preparing food and at the nursing home when we would sit and do needlepoint. I didn't want to know/remember her as a person who had lost almost all prefrontal cognitive functioning. The services were held on January 3rd. I didn't stay for the funeral. I stayed throughout the viewing and kept people smiling and laughing about things she used to say and do. I firmly believe that you should celebrate the honor of knowing someone and while you acknowledge that you will mourn the loss of a friend/family member, try to remember the good and not focus on the death. My uncle called me to thank me for that after the funeral was over, saying that Bessie's grandson had taken my words to heart. (That makes me feel a little better).
The first semester of school was nerve-wracking. At the end of it I had 2 A's and 2 B's (not great but not horrible either. This semester I want all A's). My advising professor met with me before break and we discussed some of my weaknesses and strengths. She nixed my idea for my thesis due to inability to find participants. (I wanted to do something about smokers using Incentive Sensitization and seeing if Cognitive Outcome Expectancies mapped onto a notion of the I-S theory) There is a heavy blanket of social desiribility on this campus in the form of not admitting bad habits outloud (ie: smoking, drinking, etc). Therefore, participants are difficult to find. Which sucks...so now I'm altering that to caffiene and seeing if I can come up with something similar. (Wish me luck).
Justin came down for New Year's. (For those of you who don't know...yes I met him online, no I hadn't met him before) To give you an idea of how it went...well...is going...he hasn't left yet. -grin-. I gave up a lot to give Justin and I a chance. I had to release my heart's grip on someone. That person will always hold a special piece of my heart...no one gets it but them. But, I'm happy...happier than I have been in a LONG time and I owe that to Justin being in my life. He keeps me grounded and mellow. Do I love him? -shakes magic 8 ball- "All signs point to yes" hehe.
Hrmmmm, future stuff now I guess. This semester is starting off much more smoothly than last semester. I feel recharged, excited and I really can't wait to see what happens. More later. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| I'll have a fully post shortly after new year's. Ya know going through what i've learned etc. For now a quick update.
I am alive. I am doing well overall. Tight on money but such is the life of a poor college student. I have great friends. Great people in my life.
I love you all.
Carime | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Last week and some change before thanksgiving break and then finals
Holding up ok
100% confident that at least all Bs will be made
95% confident 3 A's and 1 B.
Too much to do..not enough time. | | comments: Leave a comment |
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| | If you saw ME in a police car, what would you think I got arrested for? Answer me, then if you want, post to your own journal and see how many crimes you get accused of | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| I hate to be the one to defy sacred myth, but I believe he's a she. Think about it. Christmas is a big, organized, warm, fuzzy, nurturing social deal, and I have a tough time believing a guy could possibly pull it all off!
For starters, the vast majority of men don't even think about selecting gifts until Christmas Eve. It's as if they are all frozen in some kind of Ebenezerian Time Warp until 3 p.m. on Dec. 24th, when they - with amazing calm - call other errant men and plan for a last-minute shopping spree.
Once at the mall, they always seem surprised to find only Ronco products, socket wrench sets, and mood rings left on the shelves. (You might think this would send them into a fit of panic and guilt, but my husband tells me it's an enormous relief because it lessens the 11th hour decision-making burden.) On this count alone, I'm convinced Santa is a woman. Surely, if he were a man, everyone in the universe would wake up Christmas morning to find a rotating musical Chia Pet under the tree, still in the bag.
Another problem for a he-Santa would be getting there. First of all, there would be no reindeer because they would all be dead, gutted and strapped on to the rear bumper of the sleigh amid wide-eyed, desperate claims that buck season had been extended. Blitzen's rack would already be on the way to the taxidermist.
Even if the male Santa DID have reindeer, he'd still have transportation problems because he would inevitably get lost up there in the snow and clouds and then refuse to stop and ask for directions. Add to this the fact that there would be unavoidable delays in the chimney, where the Bob Vila-like Santa would stop to inspect and repoint bricks in the flue. He would also need to check for carbon monoxide fumes in every gas fireplace, and get under every Christmas tree that is crooked to straighten it to a perfectly upright 90-degree angle.
Other reasons why Santa can't possibly be a man:
- Men can't pack a bag.
- Men would rather be dead than caught wearing red velvet.
- Men would feel their masculinity is threatened...having to be seen with all those elves.
- Men don't answer their mail.
- Men would refuse to allow their physique to be described even in jest as anything remotely resembling a "bowlful of jelly."
- Men aren't interested in stockings unless somebody's wearing them.
- Having to do the "Ho Ho Ho" thing would seriously inhibit their ability to pick up women.
- Finally, being responsible for Christmas would require a commitment.
I can buy the fact that other mythical holiday characters are men......... - Father Time shows up once a year unshaven and looking ominous. Definite guy. - Cupid flies around carrying weapons. - Uncle Sam is a politician who likes to point fingers.
Any one of these individuals could pass the testosterone screening test. But not St. Nick. Not a chance. As long as we have each other, good will, peace on earth, faith and Nat King Cole's version of "The Christmas Song," it probably makes little difference what gender Santa is.
I just wish she'd quit dressing like a guy!!! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| AS A WOMAN PASSED HER DAUGHTER'S CLOSED BEDROOM DOOR, SHE HEARD A STRANGE BUZZING NOISE COMING FROM WITHIN. OPENING THE DOOR, SHE OBSERVED HER DAUGHTER WITH A VIBRATOR. SHOCKED, SHE ASKED: 'WHAT IN THE WORLD ARE YOU DOING?'
THE DAUGHTER REPLIED: 'MOM, I'M THIRTY-FIVE YEARS OLD, UNMARRIED, AND THIS THING IS ABOUT AS CLOSE AS I'LL EVER GET TO A HUSBAND. PLEASE, GO AWAY AND LEAVE ME ALONE.'
THE NEXT DAY, THE GIRL'S FATHER HEARD THE SAME BUZZ COMING FROM THE OTHER SIDE OF THE CLOSED BEDROOM DOOR. UPON ENTERING THE ROOM, HE OBSERVED HIS DAUGHTER MAKING PASSIONATE LOVE TO HER VIBRATOR.
TO HIS QUERY AS TO WHAT SHE WAS DOING, THE DAUGHTER SAID: 'DAD I'M THIRTY-FIVE, UNMARRIED, AND THIS THING IS ABOUT AS CLOSE AS I'LL EVER GET TO A HUSBAND. PLEASE, GO AWAY AND LEAVE ME ALONE.'
A COUPLE DAYS LATER, THE WIFE CAME HOME FROM A SHOPPING TRIP, PLACED THE GROCERIES ON THE KITCHEN COUNTER, AND HEARD THAT BUZZING NOISE COMING FROM, OF ALL PLACES, THE LIVING ROOM.
SHE ENTERED THAT AREA AND OBSERVED HER HUSBAND SITTING ON THE COUCH, DOWNING A COLD BEER, AND STARING AT THE TV. THE VIBRATOR WAS NEXT TO HIM ON THE COUCH, BUZZING LIKE CRAZY.
THE WIFE ASKED: 'WHAT THE *@!* ARE YOU DOING?' THE HUSBAND REPLIED: 'I'M WATCHING FOOTBALL WITH MY SON-IN-LAW.' | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Turning your heater on for the first time and having the smoke alarm go off. At 5am...scares the crap outta you just so you know.
Ran it for a little longer..smoke alarm stopped...no fire....so I figure it was just the dust on the heating coils. Called maintenance at 8am..they came over...confirmed dust on coils hypothesis.
Still..scared the crap outta me. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Want to buy safeword for grad school.
OMG stress
OMG I need to learn better time management
OMG I think I'm going to have to pull a 3day nosleeping bender just to finish some of this shit.
O M F G....why did I enroll in grad school!!!!!!!!!! | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| Graduate school is going well. I'm maintaining a B average in every class with potential to become A averages as soon as more grades are posted and all the projects are fully graded.
Emotionally: the past week was hell. My cousin in law's father shot his wife (who was in a coma at a hospital in huntsville) and then shot himself killing them both. I'm not shocked it happened, there were a lot of issues behind the scenes that I could see leading to something like that happening. However, my cousin-in-law and I are fairly close and I was worried about him until he finally sought counseling. So I'm not so worried now. But last week was up all night phonecalls with him letting him get everything out.
On the flip side. There's a guy...a freakin great guy. Assuming everything goes well....I may be permanently spoken for. (Fingers crossed for things going well like they are supposed to, but I'm a realist and refuse to be all excited and giddy about potential permanence until more time has passed. Right now our goal is to keep the relationship strong through graduate school)
Overall. I'm stressed not sleeping a lot, but I'm very happy. I'm finally feeling challenged in school and that makes the lack of sleep worth it. I have someone that I truly believe loves me and that's something I have never really felt before, so I'm very pleased. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now (even if we don't speak often or ever) please post a comment with a completely made up, fictional memory of you and me.
It can be anything you want - good or bad - but it has to be fake.
When you're finished, post this little paragraph in your LJ and see what your friends come up with. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| First exam grade: 98%
Grades so far on turn in assignments: 100%
Maybe at some point I'll figure out how to weave in a minuscule social life. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| Sorry for not keeping in touch more since school started everyone.
WANT TO BUY FREE TIME | | comments: Leave a comment |
| I don't have time to do a long drawn out update post so I'll just hit the major points.
-Moved into new apartment---check
-Started School---check
-No Drama in my life---check for about a week
School is going well, having some issues readjusting to the school environment but I knew that was going to happen. Right now i'm mourning the loss of ANY freetime I had, so still trying to work in a minor social life into all of that.
Mom and dad started fighting again this week, but since I'm in school I haven't had to play mediator as much...woot.
Single...terminally.
Overall Rating of Happiness? about a 7 out of 10 | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | One of my biggest worries...is once I move and start grad school...am I still going to be afraid to go out and be social. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| I've been informed that there is a family...gathering...thing...this weekend so I won't be up there.
Assuming I survive...see you guys next month :D | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| Pell Grant is out..its for undergrad only.
Gotta go meet with Financial aid to see how the hell i'm going to pay for my first semester of grad school.
fingers crossed I don't have to take out private loans. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| So far I have filled out the FAFSA and have appointments for next week to find out what else is out there and to register for classes.
Put packing and moving out on standby because that is not vital right this very moment. I can pack and find a place to live in the time from April to August.
Excited...nervous....amazed I got in.
Yay! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Another year older, another year of drama. Not really...well some drama, but still.
Relationships: 2 years of being single sprinkled with some dating here and there. Couple of friends with sprinkles kind of deals. Still terribly hung up on one particular guy.
Friends: HEART!!!!!
Family: Dad and I are back at it...that's normal.
School: I GOT ACCEPTED YESTERDAY!!!! I start in August.
Everything is starting to come together slowly. | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| I'm going to assume that the real reason for my father's anger is the issue with my cousin and his house.
however, when it escalates to a remote being thrown at my head because I didn't kill a spider fast enough. I draw the line. I'm not going to my family birthday dinner tomorrow. Instead, I'm going to be packing. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| So, Monday was my Birthday. I didn't celebrate this year because I just don't feel much like celebrating lately.
Monday was going ok, work peoples got me olive garden, family was going to go out to eat. Then the drama....
My cousin's house was foreclosed and sold. He has 10 days to move out. He decides to tell my father this on my birthday and then ask my father for a retardedly huge sum of money to try and get out of it.
All of that resulted in my father belittling me and taking out all his anger on me over the course of dinner until I just got up and walked out.
I love my family...happy birfday to me. | | comments: 5 comments or Leave a comment |
| Part of what is driving me insane right now is the waiting game. Waiting to hear if I got into graduate school before i make any hard plans to do anything moving wise.
I'm miserable here at my parent's house. Not necessarily because of them, but I have no friends in this town.
Any friends that I used to have either moved or are no different from when they were in highschool and I don't want to deal with highschool drama anymore. So I never go out and I feel very trapped. I try to go to Huntsville once a month for games cause that helps, but right now my main goal is saving money and so I can't go. This weekend coming up when I was supposed to go to Huntsville I have to go to a family obligation.
I know it'll get better, but right now I just have a hard time interacting with people because It reminds me WAY too much that I want the change to happen NOW. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| Even though I'm horrible at keeping in touch....
Just knowing you guys are out there and care is what gets me through the day sometimes.
Thank you | | comments: Leave a comment |
| So, a tornado touched down not even a quarter mile from my subdivision. If we had lived across the highway, our house would have been in the section that was demolished.
We were lucky, we just lost power for a few days. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | If I want to find a guy to date I will, I don't need you chickens clucking in my ear all day about how I need to find a nice boy and settle down. | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Won't be able to make it up this month. Due to the fact that I'm not 100% certain that my job is going to keep me on to switch positions after march, I'm hardcore saving my money so no traveling this month. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | had a dream last night that I married an ex of mine and we had 3 kids. Then we had to keep our kids from going on a murderous rampage because apparently we make some messed up children. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Doing well in my quest to be smoke free.
This week..I'm going to go try to start working out Monday - Thursday | | comments: Leave a comment |
| 1. typing liverjournal.com does not take you to live journal
2. I'm doing well on not smoking..got a 2 week supply from the doc until the pharmacy receives the order (they didn't have any left when my refill was called in).
3. Emotional State: Mixed. I understand I'm working toward goals, and some of this is my own fault that I'm stuck right now...but overall I'm good. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| I'm slipping back into old habits. Picked up a pack of smokes.../sigh
I'm unhappy with myself. I've called my doctor and gotten another month of chantix..the prescription will be ready for me to call in on friday so I've set next saturday as my new quit date. Until then, I'm struggling just to not smoke a lot. Mainly, maybe at night before bed..I'm going to try my damnedest not to smoke at all.
Good news..i'm saving up a lot so i can move out asap. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | What Carime Means | 
You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily.
You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind.
A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable.
You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.
You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.
You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.
You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.
You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.
You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!
You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. |
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| | being stuck in the "i'm working towards getting out of a bad situation" phase...drives me nuts..i'm not a patient person. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| There will be new lj icons soon.
I don't really have any "resolutions" same stuff as last year...better lifestyle...quit biting my nails. I've done decent with the no smoking thing. A few slip ups and one last big hump to get over.
This year was great. Spent it with a few friends who reminded me I was loved.
My sleep schedule is still pissing me off. I've tried going to sleep later and later and see if I sleep until 6am, but no..5am..no matter what time I go to sleep. Its getting annoying.
Dream Last night: (Names are excluded). I was sitting in my living room talking to a person whom I could see myself possibly dating assuming circumstances were right.
He kisses me and then looks at me and says "You know this won't get you what you want."
then I woke up...blech...stupid cryptic dreams | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Last night I had the following....
It's a game of the month and a regional event, somewhere in the SE. (The dream gods didn't tell me where). Anyway, I'm at the before game social hanging out, laughing, having fun with all of my friends.
Enter guy that I have the hugest crush on. I run up to hug him and he doesn't hug me back...this is very unusual. I look at him funny and he proceeds to lead me away from the crowd...and this conversation happened:
Him: I can't hug you anymore.
Me: Why? Did I develop a new strain of cooties or something?
Him: Because I'm getting married.
Me: -blink.blink...long silent pause- ...what?
Him: Its ok! Don't freak out..its only for 2 years!
Me: W..why...are you getting married for only two years?
Then the song "Secret Agent Man" started playing and I woke up. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| Day after Christmas...
I got a new keyboard, gaming mouse..ugly purse and $400. Not a bad haul.
Spent a few hours xmas eve with family. My cousin had bought his wife a wii and after playing it..OMG I NEED ONE. Those things are fun!
Christmas wasn't bad. It wasn't super great. I spent most of the time thinking of all the friends I'd rather spend it with. But it was good to see family.
Dad was a royal pain xmas day. I'm wondering hwy he hates the holiday so much.
Spent a lot of time thinking about one particular person and hoping his holidays were filled with funtimes and love.
I'm $600 closer to my goal of moving out. I'm going to save up as close to 2000$ as possible before trying to get up to huntsville and I'm waiting until a little after new years to write article summary and schedule interview with UAH. Still hoping I get in first shot. :D:D
Hi ho..hi ho..its off to work I go. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| we gotta stop scoring the same :P
What is Your Heart REALLY Made of?
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| I'm trying to post this in roughly 2-5 minutes before I scramble to get ready for work, but...
How many of you view christmas as a time to be with family and be happy?
How many of you view it as a time to be pulled away from your friends for a week or a few days of misery?
If I seem cranky or more bitchy than normal. I always get depressed around the holidays. Last year was the only year I spent it with friends instead of family and that was good.
I'm feeling very isolated right now. I know that you guys out there care about me and want to see me happy and unfortunately i don't have the money to either visit all my friends or just transplant us all to one location or even invent teleporters so we can all hang out...but well....in the montgomery area at least..I don't really have anyone to hang out with...part of that is my fault. I should make more of an attempt to hang out with a couple of locals.
But yeah...feeling very sad and alone...i'll be fine..no worries. Just needed to get that out.
Oh..if you want a xmas card from me..leave name/address....i'll screen comments
edit: comment screening seems to be wonky right now so post address at your own risk. I'm telling it to screen all comments
edit2: i fixed it..its working | | comments: Leave a comment |
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